Scotty Doesn't Know = Greatest song!
02.06.08 (9:06 pm) [edit]Scotty doesn't know
that me and fiona
do it in my van every sunday,
she tells him she's at church
but she's under me and I'm not stopping.....
WOO that song is awesomeeeeeee.
GOT TO love it :)
I'm so happy.
and I'm enthusiastic about the school year,
I'm gonna give school all I got and get the best marks I can this year!
I'm totally loving Jake and he plays a massive role in my life,
but as I'm sure I'm not his, he's not my first priority.
Aww, poor him.
HAPPYYPPAHHAPPYYPPAH YAAAAAAYYAAAAAAAY!
^ lol i dont know I'm just happy ^
Oh my god, I made sushi for dinner yesterday
it tasted so damn good I could make it ever night!
It was nice talking to skimo on the phone till 10:30
but then i had to go, cos i had school the next day.
i miss his hugs and I miss newcastle coffee.
I have a little pimple in my ear and its making me hurt
but now im going to go and have a shower and go to bed :D
It's getting late.
My hands shake with goodbyes.
This missing is immense;
But i dont want to make every blog I post about a sad love life.
I'm happy at the moment :)
And confident of the person I am.
But my problem is my mind thinks that the only reason of life is to find love,
This isn't true, well I try not to think it is.
I'm a little retarded in the way i think,
on one hand, my mind has its own mind,
and me, well i just think what I want.
I saw something truly beautiful.
A boy and a girl kissing, but he was looking at her like she was his world,
and she was his future, and she was the greatest put on this earth.
For some reason I thought he thought they'd last forever,
And if he did, he was surley wrong.
I hated it.
Otherwise, I have been hanging out at the beach and with friends,
getting a mad tan cranking:)
Well much love,
<3 Stella
Some boy.
08.21.07 (9:58 pm) [edit]You're cute You're smart You're funny You're awesome You're gorgeous You're mean You're happy You're vein You're sexy You're silly You're hypocritical You're aggressive You're caring You're sweet You're friendly You're flirty You're bold You're forward You're shy You're strong You're boastful You're adorable You're kind You're pretty You're proving You're weak You're helpful You're trustful You're annoying You're comforting You're joking You're tasty You're scared You're unsure You're beautiful, and thats for sure. You're lovable and hateable.. and thats for sure too. Your smile Your kisses Your hugs Your laugh Your protectiveness Your faith Your love, is one thing that I really want. Just tell me that you love me. But one day, eventually I'll give you away, As much as that pains me to say I'm just scared of how soon or late it might be You're afraid of how I'm going to react, Dont be. As long as i get to know what it is, i'll be cool in the long run. My love is great&&true&&comforting Each&&EverySingleDayIMiss You. I'm just scared. ♥ <3Muchlove, SteLLa.xx>
You're All I Have.
07.03.07 (7:12 pm) [edit]
I love Alex as a mate.
Sleeping with him doesnt make us more than best mates.
I held him close because I miss him.
I love Jake.
They say you're to young to know what love is;
they say as if it could last.
But its not true because everybody falls in and out of it, no matter what age.
I think im inlove with Jake.
I cant get him off my mind
He makes my hands sweat and butterflies hatch in my stomach
Every time he walks past my eyes are glued like magnets, no matter what i do to stop them.
But now we've been apart for like a month, I'm missing you so much I'm gonna go insane.
You wont let me hook up with other guys.
you say youre afraid of losing me, cos you'll regret it.
You need to get back with me if you really want to stop me,
Cos im not believing you when you say. 'i love you.' or 'i miss you like crazy.'
How can I tell if youre not playing the game if you're not mine?
Forget what those girls tell you about me and other guys;
Cos none of it happened and theyve been against me since day one.
Try to keep her off you cos its hurting way too much.
Shes everything I'm not, but you still let her.
I dont mind you being 'buddybuddy.' with her,
but please, not infront of me.
Cravings to kiss you
Cravings for you.
I miss you D:
I'm always going to be here for you.
Theres one thing that will never change at all
And another thing is.
My love for you.
Much L0V3,
<3 Stellaa.x]]
Skimo Is My Bestfriend.
05.06.07 (11:20 am) [edit]Skimo you rock. (3 words.) (3 TRUE words.)
Theres not a better friend out there, than you.
The best friend you could get :))
Not even $100000000000000000000000 0000000000000000000000000 0000000000000000000000000 00000000000000;
could buy you.
You're amazing.
I'm so lucky youre around.
Youre the only thing that keeps me sane :)
YOU give the best hugs :)
My favourite :D
I miss you lots kiddo.
And I love you lots tooo.
SKIMO FOR AVRIL.
Skimo+Stella=Bestfr iends. :))
Much Love <3
SteLLa.x]]
Jake.
05.06.07 (11:07 am) [edit]I hate it when you cant be bothered.
Its always 'I'm busy.' or 'Somethings come up.'
I'm tired of how hopless we are, and im tired of how much we fight because of our differences.
I'm sick of the way you dont notice when I'm hurt
And I'm sick of the way how you act around HER.
I cant stand you at the moment.
Actually I cant stand anyone.
I love you, but i hate the way how i cant ever let go.
I'm scared of change.
and its killing me.
This almost being over doeesn't even hurt you.
You think you can have another me in a minute.
Shows how much we were.
Even if you wont read this.
I want you to know how angry, frustrated, mad, sad, upset, disturbed, fucked up i am.
I love you.
Much Love <3
Stella.x[]
I Won't Change Just For You.
02.19.07 (5:32 pm) [edit]Thats the truth too.
And If you cant handle it, I dont care.
And yes, Skimo will know who I'm talking about.
I'm talking about the boy i love.
I havn't been going through the best latley,
And I cant change that.
So I'll be upset, and I'll cry when I want, I'll spin out, and I'll do what I want.
I know your just worried about me,
But Ive been here before,
And I've survived.
I Can't change the position I'm in.
I can't be who I'm not,
Not even for you;
The boy I love.
But for now, I'll just need your support and loving + caring.
I'd like to tell you everything, but will you understand??
I think not.
All you need to know is i like you, alot.
And I wont ever leave your side.
So kiss me, tell me you love me,
And spend time with me.
<3 Much Love,
& nbsp; Estelle.x]
A Strange Dream - :O
02.04.07 (10:18 am) [edit]I had a WEIRD dream!
My school was flooded, and my boyfriend jake wanted to talk to me...
so my friend bree-anna took me to him, but to do so, we had to climb up a stair case, the stairs were all spread, and i almost fell, but i was determine to see jake, as i'd do almost anything for him.
when i got to the top, i was in a small tower, over near the corner was jake, jesse and ben (his friends) sitting on the ground, but jake was noticebly drunk, drinking port. ben told me "jake can do this anymore, soz." and jake yelled. "so ya dumped! hahahah."
I started crying, and a computer apeared, i signed onto msn and alex (my ex) was online. I told him I was dumped, and that i was heaps upset. jake looked over and dropped the glass bottle of port, sand said "hey are you ok? who are you talking to on there?"
i couldn't look at him, so i jumped off the tower down to my bay - the flood was gone. i saw jake watching me from the tower as i cried and people hugged me asking me if i was ok.
at that moment, i woke up crying...
So i am reallly! confused!
i looked in a dream dictionary - heres what it said.
about the flood -
- To see a gentle flood, indicates that your worries over a certain matter will be soon be swept away.
- To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicates that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual/emotional/mater ial journey.
about jake being drunk/typsy-
- To see others tipsy in your dream, denotes that you need to be careful in who you associate yourself with. Their actions may reflect on your own character.
About breaking up -
- Dreaming that you broke up with your boyfriend signifies that there is some component of your relationship that needs to be addressed and dealt with. The break-up may be symbolic in that you are breaking away from some situation or old habit.
About waking up crying -
- To wake up crying, represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.
Once again, Skimo and I were on msn, discussing it.
A dream is beautiful, because it remains a dream. says:
what do u think of it all
[.S t e l l a.] & nbsp; [x] I Know You Well Enough To Know You Never Loved Me. [x] says:
that me and jake need to work this out, or its just going to hurt me more and more.
[.S t e l l a.] & nbsp; [x] I Know You Well Enough To Know You Never Loved Me. [x] says:
i think..
A dream is beautiful, because it remains a dream. says:
i...think so too
So thats the conclusion, im going to have to do this alone too.
well, i just needed to post this somewhere. lolol
<3 Much Love,
& nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ; [S t e l l a.]